Friday, February 17, 2017

One

How is it possible he is one?  How come time goes by so quickly?  A year has passed and I can hardly believe how time has changed him, how he has developed and grown.  My sweet, squishy baby has had an incredible year and has turned into a busy, funny toddler.  Toddler!!! Seriously.  Babyhood goes by so quickly. 


Dear Matthew,

As your sister Bella has written in her kindergarten journal, "thank you for being born."  I am a better mama for having you.  I am a better person for you being in my life.  What a privilege to care for you, teach you, love you.  Though you only say three words, you have taught me so much this past year.  As a new mama of four, I have had to learn to let go.  Let go of this grand idea of a clean house, let go of some ideas (nursing), let go of trying to control everything.  This past year, I made it a point to always remind myself to be in the moment.  To hold you longer...to linger in the normal day-to-day routine.  I haven't rushed you to reach milestones, but at times couldn't believe that you were reaching them so quickly...like walking at 11 months.  You are my last little baby.  I knew that you would be the moment I found out I was pregnant with you.  We have been celebrating firsts and lasts simultaneously this past year.  I am looking forward to your 1st birthday party...and yes perhaps I have gone over the top a bit...but life is precious...and milestones are meant to be celebrated and my heart is that I just want to celebrate you.  You allowed Luke to have a brother.  You are the baby that Grace wanted and realized that she loves kids.  You are buddy Bella needed and you are silly with her.  You are the completion to my crazy crew and you were a son to your dad.  I can't imagine life without you.  You are my heart outside my body (just
like your brother and sisters before you).  I love you like crazy Man Cub.  Happy, happy first birthday!  We couldn't love you more.

XOXO,
Mom





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