I wish I was way better at keeping up with this blog. Even a weekly update seems to be too much for me. Sheesh. I am always behind. Life continues on regardless. Here is the latest...
TESTING Matthew at Legacy Salmon Creek. He had a swallow study. He wasn't so happy about being strapped into the purple chair, but he was a trooper. We are happy to find out that he is not aspirating into his lungs when he has his choking/gagging episodes. It is a relief to have the test over with. He still presents a delay in foods/textures/swallowing for his age. But he is making progress. It is slow progress, but progress.
CELEBRATING a 14th Birthday! I can't believe my boy is 14 years old! Crazy. This was the first year I didn't bring treats to his classroom. I've been doing that since preschool (sniff, sniff). Instead, I snuck into the school and decorated his locker (when he was in class) and brought him his favorite lunch (Subway)! He was thrilled to get his mountain bike as a present. Luke has grown so much this past year that he needed a taller bicycle.
PLAYING with his birthday gift from mom and dad. Mark finally assembled the pirate ship water table, although he is really having fun playing with it sans water. LOL. There are so many fun things that spin.
CELEBRATING this girl's 7th Birthday! I remember the doctor wanting to deliver Bella on Luke's birthday and I begged him to please just give me one more extra day. Bella needed her own special day. So I got my wish (actually I got two days between the two of them). She wanted me to come to her school and have lunch with her. Her request for lunch???? KFC chicken leg with mashed potatoes and a biscuit. Seriously!!! A girl after my own heart! LOL.
HAVING lunch with this beauty too! She enjoyed filling me in on all the happenings of the 5th grade, and I got caught up on all the fun gossip!
CELEBRATING some more!!! We went out to dinner with both sets of grandparents and Uncle Thom. They love the Japanese restaurants that cook the food right in front of you. So that is what they all got! Even Man Cub was entertained. BTW he LOVES fried rice!
(Not sure what to think of the mouse).
STILL CELEBRATING at the end of the week. It was a long week! This little one had her very first friend birthday party at Chuck E Cheese. So many of her friends came out to celebrate her. It was so much fun and Bella had the best time!
READING the book
Wild. After reading 2 books on our vacation, I thought I would breeze through this book quickly too. Not.so.much. I am enjoying the book; however, when you add in all my responsibilities...it makes finishing a chapter a huge goal.
QUESTIONING so many things. Everything from faith, to my role, to the cars we drive. I just feel I am in a season of uncertainty.
STRUGGLING with my value. I know I am valuable to my husband and kids (and maybe that is enough). I just keep thinking about am I really important to the rest of the world outside my door. My therapist (yes I am in therapy) suggested that perhaps I am struggling with "just being a mom". Since I am no longer a classroom teacher and we are no longer foster parents (gave up our license last year) I am struggling to find value outside of those titles (both titles that came with certificates that indicated training and completion and competency). It's not pretty. But...it is real life.
LOOKING forward to spring break which is almost here. Happy to have a break and some down time with the kids.
HOPING for some sunshine!
2 comments:
So much going on! You are such a wonderful human. So proud of you for grappling with the hard questions and working to know yourself better. So glad you are my cousin. <3
I'm so sorry you're struggling with your worth. Let me tell you-- you are SO important and SO loved and SO valued. I hope that with time you can figure out how to perfectly balance your family's needs with what you need to feel fulfilled. Sending love, girlfriend!!! xoxo
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